My partner headed home to see family, a few hours away, and--thankfully--I have the weekend all to myself. Which I SO need. Things are civil at the moment, and he's still on his best behavior. Still no drinking. In fact, yesterday we ended up at last-minute birthday for a friend; we met at a restaurant/bar, and he didn't even have 1 drink, despite everyone else enjoying themselves. That's huge. Since we couldn't stay for dinner, I thought we'd invite everyone over later for some of the blackberry cobbler I had made. A few friends came over with bottles of wine, but my partner held his ground.
Later we talked and he said he wished could have a drink with the rest of us, like he used to. He said he knew that if he did, however, he wouldn't be able to stop. So that's good news, right? I wonder if he's finally turning a corner---but I'm skeptical. I have to protect myself. I need to see more progress, more change, more evidence. Going home to his family usually triggers more drinking, so we'll see what his mood is like when he returns home Sunday night. In the meantime, I'm going to take a long, deep breath and probably get in some time on the motorcycle to clear my head.
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