First Night in the New Apartment & a Movie

Yesterday I got everything moved into the new place, and spent my first night there. Fortunately, I had plenty of help from some great friends, as well as 1 or 2 folks I barely know who also pitched in. We were done by lunchtime, and the rest of the day was spent getting a shower curtain and a few essentials. Let me say that living as a couple is SO much cheaper! Damn, I need all sorts of little crap, and all of that adds up fast! But I'm trying to be frugal and accept help from friends as well as haunting yard sales and other cheaper sources for household items.

So I wasn't alone on this stressful day, I met 2 friends for dinner and a movie. My partner, however, simply chose to stay home by himself. Not my style, obviously, but he's got to work through this in his own way--and I have to respect that. We saw Inglourious Basterds--great film! Tarantino does it again. Funny, poignant and full of suspense all at the same time. However, he could've cut out some dialogue in a few scenes that seemed to drag on and on. Curiously, I think most of the movie is in subtitles (characters speak mostly French and German), which is tricky with American audiences. But if anyone can pull it off, Tarantino can.

But toward the end, my mind drifted to the split with my partner, and I was ready for star Brad Pitt to kill his last Nazi so I could go home. And when I got home, I bawled my eyes out over and over. This sucks--it isn't what I hoped for or dreamed of. My partner and I had so many plans together, and I really miss my home and the Grove. But I got through the night ok, and so I keep just putting one foot in front of the other. This morning I did some quickie yoga, lots of shamanic breathing and took a short walk. Tonight I'm actually having dinner with my partner, so we'll see how that goes. I don't know where this will go. I'm scared, but I also know we both have to experience this. I already feel like I'm learning important lessons. I'd share them but things need to settle a bit first. My emotions are still pretty raw and conflicted. But I'm here!